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i've done great deeds. numerous acts of service. performed much to the delight of the crowd. but still what is there to prove? vanity only proves vanity. arrogance only proves arrogance. even determination only proves determination. the axe can only be grinded so much and dull to the soul it rubs.

the awareness of presence, the acceptance of living gifts, and an appreciation toward the minimal including the maximum and still including the magnified reverberates a sound, whether sharp or flat or pitch perfect, that even the deaf, by resination, will curl a grin, then inwardly and silently nod and bounce "yes" to the vibrating pulse of their beating heart.

to be aware is less an act, yet rarely practiced.

to be accepting is with out.

to be appreciative is.

i fully believe, from here on out, a new perspective on life. on what that word means to the out come of what life is. life is the opposite of death? maybe so. maybe not. sure it can be debated, but to be alive is to be aware. to be alive is to accept: without presumption. to be appreciative? i know what it means. the definition of its unused jargon. i know what it is by what it is not. depreciation lessens value so much; so inconsiderately considerably. 

i have value! for too long i'd been attempting to replicate value from the example of others. vicarious. my value will reshine from the only value that shines: Trin. i admit i hated when people would say, "you glow jered" because i feared they would steal my glow. my glow was manufactured or just fat and grease and added polish and turning this way and that way in order to shine the way society wanted me to. it was very very very draining. and i grew comfortable to the distress. because i could admit, only to myself, that what ever shine was emitting from me, was fake. sure the bulb may have been the brightest, but it came with sparks of anger for not knowing, yet actually remembering where true Light comes from. and it only comes from the Source. 

that glow is Supreme and the reason for it's immeasurable amount of brilliance is appreciation. appreciation for what They are. i can only be true, genuine "shine make 'em wonder what chu got ..." shine if i reflect Them. you can not reflect me, and i always knew that which is why i would get defensive toward compliments. i need not be defensive ANY more. cause i know, am quite certain, am sure of, the Source. 

the Source is everlasting. never ending. splendor. radiance. glory. and i have it in me. i know it now. i believe it now. i have it now only because i understand it now. this is what being the light of the world will mean for me. now. and forever. amen.

light deems awareness. light is acceptance. light appreciates what is seen and no longer hidden or hiding. even when we squint cause the light seems too bright, we curl a grin. the only best response to Light is a genuine smile, wide or contrite. 

Light even brightens my darkened past. the shadows of ruin disappear and just figments are left. perplex. wonder. but i know with all, every ounce, of my heart and mind and inner me, Light will show me the answers to my questions. Light shows me what is. what and who are here, still with me, waiting to meet me and greet me. 

Light is in us all. ALL. the switches haven't been turned on for most. but this is a TRUTH: whether or not it is turned on down here on this darkened humanitarian planet, when we reach the nation called emanay, They will replace our fear that keeps us from opening our eyes due to the dark.  They will recharge us with a foreffervescent power of wattage that will never ever ever fade.

that is what there is to look forward to when we close our eyes. every time every night or for the last time on our last night. 

forevervescence!

i proclaim this revelation.

NAMASTE