OVER RUN DOWN

I AM TERRIBLY ANGERED!!  (AND YOU CAN BET IT'S YOU, YOU GOD DAMNED CHURCHES)!!  this car in front of me just stopped, no warning, no sign.  as i slowly pulled to the left of it to not rear end it, and to "continue forward", this little terrier, dressed in a baby's diaper (fucking humiliating), ran in front of my car!!  i did not slam on the brakes cause it is drizzling (yet all i envisioned was squashing this tiny animal).  i stopped.  just sat, alongside the other car, also in the middle of the road.  i turned and looked over my left shoulder, and, "phew thank you", saw it skimper across the median.

That pisses me off that some ass hole would dress it in that way and then drop it off right in on coming traffic.

That doesn't anger me as much, though, as 1. it's symbolism or relation to what, i am realizing more AND MORE, of what has happened to me in the recent YEAR!!  and 2. what is happening for my future.

I, too, was just tossed to the side of the road!!  Relationally.  Spiritually!  Organizationally.  By  church that said, "you jered are now family".  for 3 years.  "you are family".

"oh you don't want to be dressed as a baby sitter anymore?  then you have 3 days to get ALL your stuff out of our church or we'll throw it to the side of the road".

I am mocked by christian leadership and when the rest of the worshipers take notice, they re-enact it.

I should be that dog running frantic.  Abandoned by "church of love" AND love it's self.  her self.

I should be run over and smashed to no remains.

Or is this how the demons feel?  My sweet innocent demon family.

Soon, your counter part will be you.  And we will live symbiotically.  Love un-expectantly.  Sacrificially.

AGAIN as originally intended.  implied.